February 2012
got home about an hour ago and dad was still awake. had a chat with him and listened to songs he loved as a teenager but he said some things that made me so sad. not about me, but i know i’m not really helping. i’m going to be someone you can be proud of, i promise. i regret so much not doing this in the past.
idliketobuyallyourchocolate:
did it hurt when you fell from heaven because have sex with me
“Self-improvement is masturbation.”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via blua)
So I think that was the last time I would try and be the only one who cares anymore.. It’s time to let myself be happy, like I wouldn’t before, with people who are loyal to me. < 3
alwaystheanalyst:
So why in the world do I feel so alone, nobody but me, I’m on my own. Is there anyone out there who feels the way I feel, that there is then let me in and let me know I’m not the only one..
it’s just sad that you knew i was struggling and that i wasn’t okay but you continued not to care or check up or anything. how many times do i have to realise that almost no one will be there for me when i need them the most. i’m so lucky for those who are, though. just i expected more from you.
